ROBERT LOUIS CAMPBELL, IV

HEY SWEETIE!!

MAMAW JUST WANTED TO SAY HOW MUCH I MISS YOU DAILY.  I LOOK AT YOUR PICTURES ON THE WALL AND I WONDER HOW YOU WOULD BE TODAY NOW THAT YOU WOULD BE 18 MONTHS OLD.  YOU WOULD PROBABLY BE RUNNING THRU THE HOUSE SAYING "MAMAW, MAMAW"  I CAN ALMOST HEAR YOU.  I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO SET UP MY CHRISTMAS TOWN DISPLAY, AND I WISH YOU WERE HERE TO HELP PUT THE SANTA ON THE DISPLAY. 

YOUR LITTLE SISTER TURNS 6 MONTHS OLD TODAY - HARD TO BELIEVE.  PAPAW AND I TOOK HER TO THE MALL FRIDAY NIGHT AND GOT HER PICTURES MADE.  SO WANTED THE TWO OF YOU TOGETHER IN A PICTURE - BUT I THOUGHT ABOUT IT LATER ON AND I REALIZED THAT WHERE EVER ISABEL IS YOU ARE THERE TOO.  THAT GIVES ME SOME PEACE AS I KNOW YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART AND YOUR SPIRIT IS ALWAYS WITH ME. 

I AM SURE YOU GET TO DECORATE A TREE IN SILVER AND GOLD AND CELEBRATE THE HOLIDAYS IN THE BEST PLACE THERE IS - HEAVEN. 

LOVE YOU ALWAYS MY LITTLE SWEETIE!!

PAPAW AND I HAD TO GO TO BAKER-STEVENS FUNERAL HOME TUESDAY EVENING FOR THE VISITION OF OUR NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR, STEVE DOBBINS.  I REALLY HAD A HARD TIME EVEN THINKING OF GOING BACK TO THAT FUNERAL HOME.  ALL I COULD SEE WHEN I FIRST WALKED IN WAS YOUR PICTURE WITH THE CANDLES AND FLOWERS AND YOUR URN.  I FELT SUCH A SENSE OF DREAD WHEN I WALKED INTO THE ROOM.  I PRECEEDED TO SIGN THE REGISTER AND WHEN I TURNED AROUND I TOLD PAPAW THAT I WILL FOLLOW RIGHT BEHIND HIM.  AS WE WALKING TO THE FRONT OF THE ROOM I FELT A SMALL WARM BREEZE WHEN I STOPPED TO LOOK AT THE FLOWER ARRANGEMENT THAT WE HAD SENT TO STEVE'S FAMILY FROM OUR FAMILY AND I KNEW AT THAT MINUTE IT WAS YOU AND IT WAS YOUR WAY OF TELLING ME THAT I WILL HAVE TO PASS THIS WAY MANY MORE TIMES IN MY LIFE AND I WILL NEVER DO IT ALONE. 

I WILL ALWAYS LOOK FOR THAT WARM BREEZE TO PASS BY ME AGAIN AND AGAIN AND I WILL ALWAYS KNOW THAT YOU ARE WITH JESUS ARE BOTH OF YOU ARE WITH ME AT MY TIMES OF FEELING LOST OR ALONE.  IT IS MY MEMORIES OF THE SHORT TIME WE SPENT TOGETHER AND MY FAITH IN THE HEAVENLY FATHER THAT BRING ME SUCH PEACE AND I KNOW I WILL NOT FEEL SUCH DREAD AGAIN AS LONG AS YOU BOTH ARE WITH ME.

THE FAMILY IS ON VACATION IN OUR FAVORITE PLACE AND I AM SITTING HERE LOOKING AT THE ST. LAWRENCE RIVER.

IT HAS BEEN A YEAR NOW SINCE WE PLACE YOUR ASHES ALONG WITH YOUR GREAT UNCLE CALVIN'S ASHES IN THE RIVER FOR JOURNEYS TOGETHER.  WE SAW THE DOUBLE RAINBOW THEN AS WE HAVE SEEN SEVERAL TIMES SINCE AND IT MAKES US FEEL GOOD TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE STILL WITH GREAT UNCLE CALVIN.

TODAY YOUR LITTLE SISTER IS 2 MONTHS OLD AND SHE IS HERE WITH US AT THE RIVER.  THANK YOU FOR HELPING THE HEAVENLY FATHER CHOOSE HER FOR US. 

YOU ARE NEVER FAR FROM MY THOUGHTS AND ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART.  UNTIL I CAN HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS IN HEAVEN - JUST KNOW HOW MUCH YOU TOUCHED MY HEART FOREVER

Hi baby boy! I know I've not been on here for a while, but without a computer at home it's kinda hard. I also have had some trouble with thoughts of you. With Izzy on the way, and getting close to Mommy's time, I think I got scared and didn't want to jinx it or make myself sad. ( I know it's silly)

Isabel looks so much like you, I can't help thinking about you. I know you feel me and hear me when I talk to you because I can feel you, too. Not a day goes by that I don't miss you and wish that you were here, but you know that. I will keep telling her what an awesome big brother she has. And you keep looking out for her and Daddy. I love you so, so much my beautiful baby boy!!!!

WE DIDN'T GET ALOT OF TIME TOGETHER ON THIS EARTH TO CREATE ALOT OF MEMORIES, BUT I DO HAVE A SPECIAL MOMENT WITH YOU THAT WILL STAY WITH ME ALWAYS.

IT WAS ABOUT 9:30 A.M. ON THE 15TH AND YOUR DADDY WAS SO TIRED THAT THE NURSES IN THE NICU SAID THAT THEY HAD A BED FOR HIM TO SLEEP IN AND I PROMISED DADDY THT I WOULD STAY WITH YOU AND NOT LEAVE YOUR SIDE.  I HAD NO PROBLEM PROMISING DADDY THAT AS I NEVER INTENDED TO LEAVE YOU ALONE.

WHILE I SAT AT YOUR BEDSIDE AND I HELD YOUR LITTLE HAND AND YOU HELD ON TO MY FINGER. WHILE THEY GAVE YOU MORE PLASMA, YOUR NOSE BEGAN TO BLEED AND YOU LOOKED RIGHT AT ME AS I WIPED YOUR TINY NOSE.  I FELT THEN THAT YOU KNEW HOW MUCH YOU ARE LOVED AND THAT THERE WAS NOTHING I WOULDN'T DO FOR YOU.   

I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR SWEET FACE OR YOUR TINY LITTLE HAND THAT HAD SUCH A GRIP FOR A LITTLE GUY AND YOU LOOKED SO MUCH LIKE YOUR DADDY -  YOU HAVE PART OF MY HEART THAT BELONGS TO YOU FOREVER.

I DO KNOW THAT WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN IN HEAVEN  AND UNTIL THAT DAY, KNOW THAT YOU WILL BE WITH ME IN MY HEART ALWAYS AND FOREVER.